In Utero & Birth Story

In Utero 

tumbleweeds collecting dust 

i see myself in everything 

(i see you in everything) 

natural disasters 

ground breaking underneath two feet

this game conspiring against me, 

my life, designed to kill me 

i’m still bleeding 

singing, 

immortal lullabies 

it’s impossible for me to leave 

souls settle in between the crevices

that is where i find myself 

a beautiful disaster 

chaos meets the calm 

Creator and Destroyer 

I am God 

In Utero 

The creation of life requires 

Death 

I must release this identity to arrive anew

Fasting for 90 days 

Purging, my insides turning out 

Bloodshed and tears 

Darkness, Isolation 

I have given you my all 

Two souls in One vessel 

We dance to the harmony of our hearts beating 

Birth Story 

On the way to meet you 

suddenly everything feels like poetry again

Mid June, I feel the breeze on my face

My summertime baby 

I’ve waited 287 days to look into your eyes

Whatever it takes 

Patience. 

48hrs later 

The introduction of two strangers 

Everything unfamiliar 

Love soaked in blood and vernix 

You are the closest I’ve ever been to God—

to myself 

It’s okay to cry baby 

Mama’s crying too